I cant believe the month of May is just around the corner. In this year alone I've experienced God's grace so abundantly in my life. Its because of this that yesterday was a bit of a surprise for me. While trying to juggle work, school, church and home, I've always been confident that God will help me manage my responsibilities. Last night, after a long day at work and at home, I sat down to write my paper for school. I was tired but my expectation was that God was going to assist me through this in the same way He's always done for me. Minutes went by but nothing was making its way on to the computer screen. Nothing was working and then for some strange reason, I felt a sense of abandonment from God as if He didn't care that I need His help. Not being able to write magnified all the other struggles I was facing at the time. Fear crept into my heart and I wanted to rebel to show my frustration. Nevertheless, I went to bed but even after waking up in the morning my mind was still restless. Why were things going the wrong way when it didn't seem like I was not doing anything wrong? I was looking to blame something or someone but none of it made any sense. Not having anywhere else to turn I asked God to simply help me. From there I read a devotional and it brought me to a verse in the Bible. Isaiah 50 verse 10 says, "Who among you fears the Lord? Who obeys the voice of His Servant? Who walks in darkness and has no light? Let him trust in the name of the Lord and rely upon His God." Reading this, I felt as if I was walking in darkness in some areas of my life where nothing was making any sense and I realized that I needed more faith. Its faith in God that will carry me through the “dark days” when things don't go the way they're supposed to go. Maybe you're like me and you've allowed fear to creep into your life when faith was needed. Instead of fearing God you feared that God would not be there. Be strengthened today knowing that God's love has the power to remove all fears. Be encouraged that God does not abandon his children like orphans but instead has given us the best help we need in the person of the Holy Spirit. As I read today, sometimes walking through these difficult areas in life is necessary so that our faith in God can grow. I echo the words of the apostles – Lord, increase our faith.



Psalm 112:4 - Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.